I have always been a bit skeptical of those that say we are in control of our lives.
I do believe we can help path the way.. with the choices we make every day & the manner in which we conduct ourselves. However I am always being reminded of how much out of control & how insignificant we are in this massive universe of ours.

I am having a bad moment.. a small amount of time that is wearing me down. With a few things going on at the moment I just feel like curling up & disappearing.

I know I will be fine. I know my inner strength will eventually get me through this. that is the way I will be pathing my way through. I just wish it could be easier. The journey I am on right now is a bumpy & rocky one that has been moving slowly for a few years now. We have had many emotional turns along the way, many highs & a helluva lot of lows! Not knowing what lays at the end is the scary part. Let’s hope it is a good ending.

A good friend of mine from my High School days has a sister who has just undergone Gastric Banding Surgery today.

I’d like to wish her a very speedy recovery & remind her to take it slow & don’t expect too much immediately, that way she will surprise herself & be very proud of what she has gone through & accomplished. Do not allow anyone to make you feel any negativity or guilt. This has been YOUR journey, not theirs.

I’m always here for a chat if needed.

Stay safe Belinda, get well soon!

Dean has been wanting to go & see Captain America for some time. So tonight we are off to see it together. I have no idea whether it is going to be to my liking or not, but if it means some alone time with my man then I’m sure it’ll rock!

Well.. it’s been forever & a day since I last left a blog here. I have been looking at this site blankly for some time. Trying to find the encouragement has been hard. But today we embarked upon another part of our journey, so I saw it fit to use that as the good ole excuse to get back on here & get typing.

Over the past months, many things have happened. We have moved residence. My Sister In Law moved to her own home. Dad In Law moved over from Western Australia. I’ve finally changed jobs!
No doubt many of these topics I could write hours on. Someday, maybe I will. For now.. i’ll keep with the update.

My spare time is spent daydreaming LoL. I have spent time making cakes several months ago for workmates Birthdays & even though I know I am not very talented in the creative & ideas department, I found myself really enjoying this expensive hobby.
I have been researching into buying an Airbrushing system and a icing printer. I was almost ready to make my purchase for a Kopykake Airmaster system, until today.

We finally went to our first fertility appointment in over 2 years. This time much closer to home. We met Dr David Greening. He is a wonderfully jovial man with what seems to be a good kind & caring nature. We felt extremely comforted by his mannerism & it reminded us much like Prof. John Eden & our first meeting with him.
Dean & I were very happy with our outcome today, which wasn’t much to be honest with you. But as it was an initial consult, we left feeling like we have some direction. We have some tests to repeat for him & hopefully by the end of September at our next visit we might have some clear answers & indication of where to next.
It isn’t that we didn’t get the help like this before, in fact it isn’t dissimilar from where we were approx. 3 years ago. But as time has passed & age has grown on us a little more, we ultimately don’t have a lot of “breathing room” left, so to speak. The results we discussed today, although brief were good news to say the least. So hopefully from here we can only move on & into better places.

I will try to continue to blog more often as I once did. I kinda miss it to be honest! The motivation just doesn’t strike me as much as it once did & the drive just hasn’t been there. Excuses? I say YES!